weird dream P2 =.=

i get a weird dream again...
is it the season of dreams for me?
it is really seldom that i remember my dream so vividly
with the emotions and the details as well
with the exception of i always forgot the faces in my dreams HAH!
so now... another story begins...

i'm in a shopping mall, but i can't remember where it is though
or this mall never even exists
i can remember the the shopping complex rough floor plan
weird heh...
there's a girl beside me, i think she's a best friend
the weird part is, i think there's a hospital somewhere in the mall
because i saw my ex *yup! i can get the feeling she's me ex.. and does that makes me a guy?*
and she's really really pale with sickness
but it seems that she betrayed our relationship before
i didn't greet her and literally glared at her like "what are you doing here?"
i was so mad that i just left her there tearing up
then i remember i lost something in the mall
i walked everywhere searching for it
it was so important that i can't bear to lose it
when i found it, my friend ran to me and told me that my ex just passed away
i was just shocked
i ran to where the hospital (?) was
and i on the way, my friend kept telling me that it wasn't her intention to betray me
she was diagnose with a cancer and did not have much time left
but she really loved me and wanted to get back with me to spend her last memories with
i just collapsed on the floor reading the letter she wrote
tears kept flowing
then i just woke up with tears in my eyes

PHEW! why did i get such dreams for 2 nights in a row?
the feeling of pain and the tearing of my heart was so clear
it was like the scene just imprint in my head
i can't get past the image of me collapsed on the floor crying my heart out
if yesterday's dream was the result of me travelling to and fro KL too frequently
then what made the dream today?

weird dream

'' hey i just woke up, and this is crazy
but i slept back, so weird dream found me'' :P

it is a really weird dream!
everyday i will wake up early to get my facebook login bonus
but mostly after that i will just sleep back hahah
my dreams were seldom so vivid
i remembered the scenes clearly, but just can't remember the guy's face *ISH!*
i know it is a weird dream >.<
in 1 scene i was sleeping side-by-side with him on a staircase
just after i had my tantrum and sprained my ankle HAH!
the next scene was waking up in a train while we missed our stop and end up being in IOI Mall station
(IOI Mall station haven't even finish building and it is for sure not a m'sia-wide line)
the next scene was coming down from a taxi and trying to get back on train back to kampar
but i had someone's purse with me! my bf *i think :P* said that he thought it's my purse so he took it
but it is a HELLO KITTY purse!! and i'm not that big fan of it...
but opening it gave me a SHOCK!
i saw my name on some papers in the purse (seems like a kindergarten nametag)
and i actually saw the name of the owner and REMEMBERED! Tan Kai Peng
who's this? i don't recall anyone with that name...
in the end the taxi uncle is from kampar and i asked him to take some of my luggages
said something about deposits and how am i getting back my luggages
and suddenly it occurred to me that WTH am i taking a taxi from kampar and taking a train back kampar?
and i woke up! unable to continue this ridiculous dream anymore i supposed~ xD
but i remember seeing the guy's face
i remember his head leaning on my shoulder and me leaning back
i remember we slept through the right station together
AHHH! i remember seeing his mother!!! when we were getting off the taxi!
and and and... i just can't remember their faces now... >.<
i suppose it is a dream after all...a weird one, but a sweet one
he does act like my boyfriend in the dream
i wonder if he is my future one kekeke
so i'm not destined to meet him until the time is right
OPPS! i guess i'm really in to this dream~ :)

new start? :)

read (or stalked) my friend's blog just now :P

her blog is interesting :)

i can't write like her though

her blog reflects her life, her attitude and her personality

i wish mine was the same

but mine have secrets in them (shhhhh...)

secrets that i can't bear to reveal although it was past tense

maybe i should make a new start huh?

using english as the main language

but i do try hard to maintain my blog previously with chinese :(

since i'm scared to forgot my writing skills

but anyways, i should really work hard on my english

it's already pass midnight and i'm still awake >.<

my determination of sleeping before 12am never works huh..

should really keep a tight schedule now onward

since finals is getting nearer and nearer

and i'm slacking myself more and more *ISH*

hate myself for being lazy but lack the determination of changing

maybe should make up my mind for this week

ok then!

to-do-list (more like study list):

finish my strategic management tutorials

finish my notes for SM and EN *and CG too if can*

bring my BA2 notes back to KL and start REVISING!

OHNO! all these will really need strong determination to achieve >.<

wish myself the best of luck~

PS: i write better and more cheerful in english, haha~

maybe my emo post will be in chinese then ;)

云中歌 -- 心记

。。。桐华的书很虐耶
从步步惊心，大漠谣 看到昨晚刚读完的云中歌
每一本都那么赚人热泪
能让我哭那么多的书 到现在为止 只有恋空和一本忘了题目的短篇故事集
最近才新加入了步步惊心和大漠谣两本
步步惊心单单看戏就已经让我感动到一个不行
书本里描述的感情和内心更是让我泪奔
大漠谣也是一本虐人的书 虐尽了书里主角 也虐走了我的眼泪

还是回来云中歌吧 桐华笔下的女主角都有异曲同工之效
不管是若曦，金玉，还是云歌
在一段感情里面 遇到外来的攻击 是坚强的
可若是另一半背叛了诺言 她们就是脆弱的

云歌一开始就认错了人 把小时候的记忆 用在了相似的人身上
本来我以为 云歌真是分不清了 没想到其实她知道
陵哥哥是小时候的陵哥哥 病己大哥是病己大哥
可后来遇上了真正的陵哥哥 却无法说服自己那就是眼前的人
云歌从病己大哥和许平君之间 选择了友情
接受了孟珏的感情后 却发现一开始他只是在利用自己的身份和家境
在那么一个晴天霹雳之后 又发现姐姐对自己还是那么的不信任
想要离开 却又阴差阳错的遇见了陵哥哥
接受不了自己在感情上已经背叛陵哥哥
想要离开 却被他百般留下
好不容易感情深种 却又发现他患上了不治之症
在那么多的磨难下 只能把握这最后唯美的时光
在他死后才发现的真相 让她跌进了复仇的漩涡
在死了一个又一个的亲人后 总算肯放下一切

这本书虐了好多人 也死了好多人
因为被情节给深深吸引 只能一次性地读完它
结果是眼睛在前一晚哭得肿肿地去上课
我不排斥看苦情的故事 但我希望到最后是一个好的结局
在桐华的这三本书里 只有大漠谣有个不错的结局
可却也留下了九爷这个伏笔 这个遗憾

步步惊心里 若曦希望八阿哥离开皇位之争
不得所愿之后 决定斩断情丝
大漠谣里 金玉的感情不被九爷接受 并肩的风景破碎
金玉选择离开 不再留恋
云中歌里 云歌发现她的感情是被利用的
心 碎了 感情 冷

云歌是幸福的 被人疼着 爱着 保护着
云歌也是不幸的 失而复得的感情 却又永远失去
沉浸在复仇的世界里 不知如何抽身
在身边的人一个接一个离开后 总算看清了真相
赔上了青春 赔上了健康 也赔上了一辈子的感情

哭得我好累呀 云中歌里好似没有坏人
就算是做了坏的事情 也看似情非得以
死的人好多 让我哭了又哭没办法停止
其实我不会评一本书 我只能在回想的同时 用自己的方式写了大纲
桐华的文笔很棒！ 让我叹为观止

应该疲惫的一天

其实呢 现在3.08am了 我其实应该开始觉得累爆了
前一个晚上读书读到2.30am才睡觉 6.30am就爬起来准备去上课
考完试心血来潮地驱车到了怡保shopping
我们是疯了吧
其实我真的应该很累了
不过assignment还没做完啊
是自己懒惰然后又拖到最后一分钟才做啦 可以说是自作自受
呵呵 可是还是很不能理解的精神
就连驾车到怡保来回还是那么的精神
好啦 或许有那么一点爱睡了
可是整体来说要完成我的assignment才睡觉应该是没问题的
是因为要回吉隆坡了所以特别兴奋么？
怪怪耶 真不懂我自己的生理
行李还没收拾呢
现在先收拾心情 搞定了assignment才收拾行李好了

不过得先聊聊今天的话题
今天很难得破例和lisa她们说了我的感情事
其实我好像了解为什么我们三个会常在一起了
性格很和呀 而且对彼此的了解很深了
甚至在不知不觉中把对方的喜好都记上了 *虽然还有些模糊*
要找到如此的朋友不容易吧 我会珍惜的 呵呵

再来说说我的收获吧
买了戒指 *其实不是很确定我为什么要买 心血来潮地说*
剪了头发 还算ok啦 学徒剪的 过关过关
然后好像就没什么了
没买衣服裙子 没买小说杂志 也没买鞋子高跟
不正常呀俺

回太平咯~没照片耶~

就如题目所说，我回太平了！久违的太平~ 可没拍到照。。呵呵~
蓉应该挺冤恨我的 呵呵 她想拍照时我们在厕所 我又不想在厕所拍照
结果到最后是忘了拍 呵呵 没事儿 就等她来金宝吧 *希望*
在太平呢 拜六去了早上的巴刹 穿着wedge espadrilles 危危险险地走在鱼摊之间
不过倒是避免了水喷到脚上 没用过那么小心的姿势穿那双鞋
真是久违的太平 久违的巴刹呀 xD
拜六一天好像大部分都在睡觉 好像怀孕似的 睡到像猪酱
礼拜的行程倒是比较满
早上下午在姐家度过 晚上出去吃晚餐看电影 接近一点才回到家

拜六有找了邻居的aunty阿嫲聊聊天
aunty很喜欢问我的感情事耶 整天都问我和他怎么样了 还有没有机会
又问为什么分手 aunty r aunty 这问题你问了好多次呀 我的回答也总是那么千篇一律嘛
就别问了吧 倒不如介绍一些帅哥给我还不错 呵呵
在姐家倒是没聊到什么 她弟弟在嘛 而且我主要是找她修眉 哈哈
姐的厨艺没什么进步呵 做蛋糕神马的还行 要做正餐的话就差了点
晚上就和蓉还有邻居大哥哥出去吃晚餐看电影 batman 呵呵
话题绕来绕去还是感情生活 单身的人啊
奇了怪了 我们就那么没话题吗？
这么怕没人要？！还真挺怕的 呵呵

也有和老婆谈了好久的电话 粥都快煲干水了 xD
反正就是聊了好久 就算聊些没营养的话题也高兴
本小姐高兴欢喜就行！呵呵
老婆说了会来金宝找我的呀 千万千万不要让我失望了
欧会哭的！！