i guess i didn't blog about my last semester's results?
it's not satisfying really.. but enough for me to smoothly proceed with my plans
when i'm loading my results' page, i was so so nervous
my hands were literally shaking
i wasn't confident with most subjects
but my coursework marks weren't that low either
i thought i would fail at least one of the subjects
and i expected one of them would be able to cover for the failed one
but.. in the end...
i get an ALL PASS :) *not brave enough to put it in bold red color, something like a taboo*
my hands shook even harder
i jumped up and down 'cause this meant that i can go for my internship
i was so happy that i literally jumped the whole way to tell my mother
my mum actually cracked a smile when i told her the news
*mind you, she rarely smile; chloe is the only exception*
but when she knew my exact grade, she said it was not good enough
i should have get better than this "Don't have an A r?! Har?!"
my living motto is happy-go-lucky
as long as i passed all subjects
as long as i can go for my internship
as long as my plans are smooth
as long as i don't have to extend a freaking semester
i'm content with what i get :)
i'm easily satisfied
when my life is smooth, i'm happy and contented
i don't ask for much
but maybe deep down i still crave for a word of praise from my mother
i was her proud child once
i aced my primary classes
until i reached my secondary school
that's when my results started to drop drastically
maybe i'm not compatible with subjects that i don't like
but when i reached form5, i overheard her telling that i'm starting to work hard by my own
then only i realised she was actually caring for me in a way that was not shown
maybe i forgotten about it throughout the years
i wanted to join foundation after my SPM
she forced me to stay in form6
i HATE form6
i literally failed all the way through
i only passed my STPM *miraculously*
i was working in genting that time
and i started to know about my parents better
more like i suddenly woke up and cleared my mind
i accepted their ways of communicating
and i feel kinda supported throughout the 2 months in genting
freedom can wait, but i am staying put for dad
this was my past blog on my genting life
it's in chinese though
but i wrote how i felt and what i roughly understood after all these years as a rebellious child
when i joined university, i fell hard during the first semester
i dreaded to go back to my university
i was so afraid, i didn't want to fact the cruel reality
but i had to face everything
my results fluctuated throughout my course of study
sometimes were good, sometimes were bad
until the very bad situation happened again
my parents asked me whether i should continue my studies
maybe i should go out to work
but to tell the truth.. i never thought of giving up my studies
maybe i was lazy, i procrastinated, i failed badly
but i never thought of giving up
my thought was "well, failed.. study again lor"
i didn't cry over the spilled milk and i don't know whether is this a good thing
my brother gave me the serious look and decided to support my financial status
i told him i still wanted to study, i'm not giving up
well... after that i managed to get through 2 semesters smoothly
i hope it's not a curse or something
my results fluctuated with kind of a trend
when it is fine enough, it'll drop *TOUCH WOOD*
i seriously do not hope to extend my study time any further
i got a fine enough result for last semester
and since my mum didn't say much
actually she did nagged me from the release time until i came back to uni
i didn't expect her to be satisfied with my results
i've forgotten that she's that kind of person that will not admit her feelings
when both of them did not refuse my request ro change my handphone
i was quite surprised, but of course i'm very happy too
i posted in facebook that my father promised to buy me a new one once i finished my exams
my cousin commented my father was actually pleased to see me passing all the subjects
i was SHOCKED! i didn't realise that
my cousin sister said they had a discussion about my study when they met up
after all the blaming, they actually wanted to change, especially my mum
i strongly suspect that my aunt washed their brains...
although i don't know how long this may lasts
still i appreciate the effort of them wanting to be better parents for me
and i totally did not expect that my mum will actually approve of my results
and i burst into tears after that
sorry to be that sensitive, and my friend called me stupid to cry
*they meant well*
i was really in shock, took me a few minutes to recover
when i told my friends the story, i was choked in tears
i'm thankful for my cousin sister for letting me realise that
although i yearn for a word of praise or recognition from my mother
staying this way will do :)
we have been through so many years with this kind of communication style
a sudden change might throw it off balance
not to say that i do not appreciate
just that i know your effort to do so, and i hope you just be at ease of how you are
i'm familiar with your personality apparently :P
and i still love my cute parents no matter how much we argued in the past
no matter how much i complained about both of you
i would not trade for anything else in this world
you are the one who made me how i am now
i did not stray from the right path
i may fall and you may not know how to give me support
but to know that you're still at my back is a good reason enough for me to climb back up
i won't be saying this to your face
i'm not good at expressing
but i do love you a lot, papa and mummy
I LOVE YOU <3
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
First Day!
well.. technically, today is the second day of my new trimester
and i just do a little sum up of what happened these 2 days k? :P
yesterday first tutorial class was hilarious xD
our lecturer (whom we haven't met until today) is famous
famous for what you asked? ehehehehe
he's one hell of a fussy lecturer
and our tutor just loves to make fun of him sarcastically
we totally laughed throughout the tutorial listening to his sarcastic comments about the lecturer
don't get him wrong! they're actually good friends :)
that's why they can make fun of each other freely HAHAHA
and here comes today's lecture class
we (in chinese idioms) kept our skin tight *皮绷紧点* according to our tutor's advice xD
first and foremost NEVER ATTEMPT EYE CONTACT
well, the tutor didn't asked us to do so
just that we automatically did so xD
why's he fussy?
i suppose not really, it's our job to make sure the format of the assignments correct
but 30-40 journal articles? why don't you just ask me to write a thesis???!!!
oh wait, you will be asking us to write a mini-thesis... @#$%^&*!
great great great just great!
making up christian names for those chinese-charactered name which you're not familiar with
to tell the truth, i had a good laugh! xD
since i managed to get through a 2-hour lecture without getting sleepy
good job! xD as long as you won't be calling me out, i'm fine with anything you throw to us
as for another tutorial class for today... it's disappointing really
i didn't expect to get a fabulous tutor for a difficult subject
but i expect the tutor to teach according to the subject
instead of making political remarks to students
oh! you said you're not supporting or against any party?
your sarcastic comments are enough proof to put you in one of the party
diamond ring? submarines? planes without engines?
don't try to say you are only explaining to us where our taxes went to
i had the urge to just leave the class
i don't actually mind listening to political comments
i enjoy listening to it as long as it is a fair discussion
but don't you know that we are minors to you?
you shouldn't plant that kind of mindset in us
you're misleading your students
and don't keep saying that you're just discussing the TAXES for god sake
you won't be making those comments if they are just taxes to you
gosh.. you're just not my type of tutor
and i'm stuck to you for 14 weeks
how happy is that huh?!
>.<
and i just do a little sum up of what happened these 2 days k? :P
yesterday first tutorial class was hilarious xD
our lecturer (whom we haven't met until today) is famous
famous for what you asked? ehehehehe
he's one hell of a fussy lecturer
and our tutor just loves to make fun of him sarcastically
we totally laughed throughout the tutorial listening to his sarcastic comments about the lecturer
don't get him wrong! they're actually good friends :)
that's why they can make fun of each other freely HAHAHA
and here comes today's lecture class
we (in chinese idioms) kept our skin tight *皮绷紧点* according to our tutor's advice xD
first and foremost NEVER ATTEMPT EYE CONTACT
well, the tutor didn't asked us to do so
just that we automatically did so xD
why's he fussy?
i suppose not really, it's our job to make sure the format of the assignments correct
but 30-40 journal articles? why don't you just ask me to write a thesis???!!!
oh wait, you will be asking us to write a mini-thesis... @#$%^&*!
great great great just great!
making up christian names for those chinese-charactered name which you're not familiar with
to tell the truth, i had a good laugh! xD
since i managed to get through a 2-hour lecture without getting sleepy
good job! xD as long as you won't be calling me out, i'm fine with anything you throw to us
as for another tutorial class for today... it's disappointing really
i didn't expect to get a fabulous tutor for a difficult subject
but i expect the tutor to teach according to the subject
instead of making political remarks to students
oh! you said you're not supporting or against any party?
your sarcastic comments are enough proof to put you in one of the party
diamond ring? submarines? planes without engines?
don't try to say you are only explaining to us where our taxes went to
i had the urge to just leave the class
i don't actually mind listening to political comments
i enjoy listening to it as long as it is a fair discussion
but don't you know that we are minors to you?
you shouldn't plant that kind of mindset in us
you're misleading your students
and don't keep saying that you're just discussing the TAXES for god sake
you won't be making those comments if they are just taxes to you
gosh.. you're just not my type of tutor
and i'm stuck to you for 14 weeks
how happy is that huh?!
>.<
Sunday, May 12, 2013
catch-ups!
well, i kinda abandoned my blog for nearly a month
i say that's normal since i'm not a dedicated blogger xD
so should i do some catch-ups of happenings lately?
please don't let me bore you with my life HAHAHA
hmm... let's go back to a long long time ago
when i got my rm250 book voucher *all hail the gov!*
i listed out books i wanted!
a long list indeed, tough work eliminating those not in need KEKE
seems lesser than what i got last time
but well, the hunger games trilogy consists of 3 books and costed me almost rm60+
i got the 1st and 3rd book of the tiger saga from Big Bad Wolf rm8 each! cheap right?
i was waiting for the book voucher to complete the set, 5th book was not yet out tho
got some chinese bookies from my favourite author recently
i wanted to get the scarlet heart, since i love the drama soooo muchie
but i read the whole thing online, so it is categorized under the not-in-need section
2 chinese bookies i got were written by the same author too
another one i aimed for quite some time, after reading only i realize it is a troll book xD
laughed my ass off reading that book! *天下最二 if you're curious which book is it*
the last chinese book was written by another favourite author of mine too
maybe i'm into china author whose books are always reproduce into dramas
apart from the scarlet heart, the song of desert will be out soon too
and i can't wait to watch! finished the books long time ago~
i wrote some after-read stuffs, chinese tho :P search it up!
apart from buying books, did a small shopping spree at aeon jusco bukit tinggi
purse from vincci *the offer was good*, cleansing foam from the face shop blah blah blah
see for yourself, i feel like i'm boring peepo with my words edy
i went for a pre-exam stress-release trip to ipoh
my friend saw me going into a stressful mode, they suggested it *lame excuse!!! xD*
sums up my ipoh trip with pichas xD
i love the green tea frapp from starbucks, ma all time favourite :D
i love the shirts i bought, buy 1 get 2nd with rm1 KEKEKE darn cheap
i love the pair of shoes, too comfy that it is indescribable and too pretty that i can't resist!
it's from Payless~
happy graduating everyone :) mine will be some time in far far future >.<
the hectic exam period was killing me
i didn't pull all nighter this time, last experience taught me that it is suicidal
some subject was disastrous, some was fine
please gawd, help me T.T
*hops away from exam topic*
i went shopping in mid valley with my sistahs, omma, or whatever names we called each other xD
so let the pichas do the talking ba HAHAHA laziness strikes!
the ice cream was the besst i'd ever tasted!
apart from the chili choco flavour, which was a total nightmare @.@
Gelato by Gelatissimo all hail ma sweet tooth *should be teeth xD*
the mango flavour was great!
but i chose the lime flavour with the rum and raisins
the rum and raisins was great! love it to da max! <3
got a whole lot of colourful spoons when tasting HAHA aunty job
here comes our camwhore-ness
didn't buy much stuffs there~
hmm... a pair of Jelly Bunny don't count much right? :P
that pair is irresistible! too cute~ and smells creamy! not that i'm going to eat it :P
i kinda ruined 2 pair of slippers/sandals i wore daily in kampar
so i need a new one right? perfect chance :P
filled my tummy with luxurious food too
yesh, Carl's Jr. is considered luxurious since it is sooo expensive
but every penny counts better than b&g in ipoh *i had the decency not to reveal the name :)*
no wonder my nephew love carl's jr, the fries are terribly good!
couldn't finish the whole set, had to tapao the leftover fries for my nephew :P
hmm... what else for the day? ohya, terrible promoters!
we went in Nose to look at the offers, just when we were searching for price tag
one promoter barge in to pull the price out from the bag and read it for us
seriously WTF! such a pretty handbag ruined by your attitude
i'm so not buying that thing anymore, good luck in selling that out
maybe it's a jinx or some curse maybe? handbags promoters are terrible there
we went in aeon to look around too
found a nice handbag, saw that it's on offer
asked nicely whether the price is before or after discount
FxxK the promoter and her snobbish attitude!
"of course the price is after discount lah! RM69 still want discount more ar?!
then how much discount you all want?!" add an eye-roll and snort in the end
SERIOUSLY?! although we may not look rich, but we are perfectly able to buy that bag!
should we face-slam you with credit cards and debit cards we have?
damn you bitch! ohno, bitch is a compliment and not for you!
CURSE you, curse you and your bags so that you'll never sell any for the rest of your life!
you're just a freaking aunty working as a promoter
and you don't have any rights to treat a customer so!
phew... calm down now, worthless to kill cells for idiots that don't know how to respect others
so whatever, that's what we encountered in mid valley
come back to happier stuffs :P ma camwhore MUAHAHAHA
well, that's the last effort from me to act cute!
leave it to the younger generation *i sound old*
my niece is cute enough to do that :)
GOODNIGHT! :)
i say that's normal since i'm not a dedicated blogger xD
so should i do some catch-ups of happenings lately?
please don't let me bore you with my life HAHAHA
hmm... let's go back to a long long time ago
when i got my rm250 book voucher *all hail the gov!*
i listed out books i wanted!
a long list indeed, tough work eliminating those not in need KEKE
seems lesser than what i got last time
but well, the hunger games trilogy consists of 3 books and costed me almost rm60+
i got the 1st and 3rd book of the tiger saga from Big Bad Wolf rm8 each! cheap right?
i was waiting for the book voucher to complete the set, 5th book was not yet out tho
got some chinese bookies from my favourite author recently
i wanted to get the scarlet heart, since i love the drama soooo muchie
but i read the whole thing online, so it is categorized under the not-in-need section
2 chinese bookies i got were written by the same author too
another one i aimed for quite some time, after reading only i realize it is a troll book xD
laughed my ass off reading that book! *天下最二 if you're curious which book is it*
the last chinese book was written by another favourite author of mine too
maybe i'm into china author whose books are always reproduce into dramas
apart from the scarlet heart, the song of desert will be out soon too
and i can't wait to watch! finished the books long time ago~
i wrote some after-read stuffs, chinese tho :P search it up!
apart from buying books, did a small shopping spree at aeon jusco bukit tinggi
see for yourself, i feel like i'm boring peepo with my words edy
i went for a pre-exam stress-release trip to ipoh
my friend saw me going into a stressful mode, they suggested it *lame excuse!!! xD*
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| Happy Sunday indeed :) |
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| i love the owl! xD |
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| favourite shoes of the year! too comfy too pretty :) |
i love the green tea frapp from starbucks, ma all time favourite :D
i love the shirts i bought, buy 1 get 2nd with rm1 KEKEKE darn cheap
i love the pair of shoes, too comfy that it is indescribable and too pretty that i can't resist!
it's from Payless~
we had a pre-grad photoshoot
not that satisfying due to the time limit but happy enough to be with friends :)
the hectic exam period was killing me
i didn't pull all nighter this time, last experience taught me that it is suicidal
some subject was disastrous, some was fine
please gawd, help me T.T
*hops away from exam topic*
i went shopping in mid valley with my sistahs, omma, or whatever names we called each other xD
so let the pichas do the talking ba HAHAHA laziness strikes!
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| fish head noodles before shopping! |
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| delicious! slurp! |
apart from the chili choco flavour, which was a total nightmare @.@
Gelato by Gelatissimo all hail ma sweet tooth *should be teeth xD*
the mango flavour was great!
but i chose the lime flavour with the rum and raisins
the rum and raisins was great! love it to da max! <3
got a whole lot of colourful spoons when tasting HAHA aunty job
here comes our camwhore-ness
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| pretty girls, aren't we? :P |
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| i LOVE that dress! |
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| duck lips! more like piggies tho xD |
hmm... a pair of Jelly Bunny don't count much right? :P
that pair is irresistible! too cute~ and smells creamy! not that i'm going to eat it :P
i kinda ruined 2 pair of slippers/sandals i wore daily in kampar
so i need a new one right? perfect chance :P
filled my tummy with luxurious food too
yesh, Carl's Jr. is considered luxurious since it is sooo expensive
but every penny counts better than b&g in ipoh *i had the decency not to reveal the name :)*
no wonder my nephew love carl's jr, the fries are terribly good!
couldn't finish the whole set, had to tapao the leftover fries for my nephew :P
we went in Nose to look at the offers, just when we were searching for price tag
one promoter barge in to pull the price out from the bag and read it for us
seriously WTF! such a pretty handbag ruined by your attitude
i'm so not buying that thing anymore, good luck in selling that out
maybe it's a jinx or some curse maybe? handbags promoters are terrible there
we went in aeon to look around too
found a nice handbag, saw that it's on offer
asked nicely whether the price is before or after discount
FxxK the promoter and her snobbish attitude!
"of course the price is after discount lah! RM69 still want discount more ar?!
then how much discount you all want?!" add an eye-roll and snort in the end
SERIOUSLY?! although we may not look rich, but we are perfectly able to buy that bag!
should we face-slam you with credit cards and debit cards we have?
damn you bitch! ohno, bitch is a compliment and not for you!
CURSE you, curse you and your bags so that you'll never sell any for the rest of your life!
you're just a freaking aunty working as a promoter
and you don't have any rights to treat a customer so!
phew... calm down now, worthless to kill cells for idiots that don't know how to respect others
so whatever, that's what we encountered in mid valley
come back to happier stuffs :P ma camwhore MUAHAHAHA
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well, that's the last effort from me to act cute!
leave it to the younger generation *i sound old*
my niece is cute enough to do that :)
GOODNIGHT! :)
Saturday, April 13, 2013
random rant
i don't normally blog about my feelings
too public and i don't SHARE
i mean it, i don't normally share my feelings
unless you're a friend really close to me and i feel comfortable with you enough to tell you
i enjoy girls' talk, pillow talk, or whatever that brings us together :)
i enjoy outings with friends
i enjoy moments with friends
i don't mind being alone in my room having my own sweet time
but that doesn't mean i'm a quiet, closed-up person
i don't mind being crazy with my friends, i can be the craziest if i want to
but that doesn't mean i'm really such an outgoing, happy-go-lucky girl
maybe i look strong enough, or maybe i look optimistic enough
hey, should i put up a sign that i can actually cry?
i know that crying is not a weak sign
but do you enjoy letting people see you cry?
sorry to admit but i do cry, hundreds and thousands of times
i can cry over a very simple matter
books, dramas, arguments
am i crazy to cry over such teeny-weeny small matters?
i'm quite temperamental you know?
i'm not as strong as you see i am
but what choice do i have?
i'm wearing this mask like since years ago
i learnt not to show sadness on my face
i learnt to keep secrets
i learnt that if i'm happy, or at least i look happy, people around me tend to get happy too
i learnt to let go
why keep something so painful? move on girl, people never look back
one of the reasons of me being cold maybe?
maybe you think it's fine to treat me like this
but let me remind you, i'm pampered and spoiled as the only and youngest girl in my family
i'm a little baby girl! i cry, i pout, i have tempers
but how you see me has become my mask
i'm strong? fine! i don't cry? fine! i love to gossip? fine! i go crazy anyplace anytime? fine!
i'm strong enough to let you play with my feelings? FINE! a big big fine!!!
do i look easy enough for you? or do i look like a toy to you?
or am i just one of your many options?
i don't normally block people out from my world
but eventually i learnt to do so, by hard experience
please, go on with your attitude or whatever you're on to
enjoy getting close to someone and ditch them later on
i don't show, doesn't mean that i don't mind
i'm not a puppy hanging on your every word
innuendos don't work, and i'm tired of guessing
my tempers are damn bad, but lucky for you, i don't show them anymore
i have tempers, and a real bad one exists
guess i inherit it from my parents, since both of them have the same as mine
i used to let go of my temper a lot during secondary school
primary is even worse... i'm quite a spoiled child that time
but hey, i tried to control it every single time, and i'm still learning to do so
people don't normally get to my bad side
since i don't look like an easy person for you to get away with
but someone tends to be stupid and offends me greatly
but i don't really care anymore
i move on, leaving you behind grabbing on to your little grudge
i don't really need you in my life
or truthfully, you cause a mess in my life
guess that's a big statement, maybe i should just say you cause a mess in certain matters
do you enjoy holding grudges? i guess you do
do you enjoy showing faces? i guess you do too
do you enjoy troubling others? i guess you think it is natural for you to do so
but well... since that you're not important to me
i decided not to slap you in your face to wake you up
live your own life, live it happily!
as long as you keep out from my boundaries, i'll keep my hands behind me
but beware though, i can be really bitchy
sarcastic comments, ignoring your entire existence
i can do much more than that, but i don't normally be a bitch
why don't you wake up, wipe off those stamps stuck to your eyes
and start to see this world, world that doesn't welcome people like you
you'll suffer, or should i say you suffered
past experiences didn't give you any lesson? WOW
guess you think that you are always the right one huh?
so... whatever, just don't try to annoy me
two different feelings in one post? i am ranting
don't feel serious, i'm just blabbering around
i need to get things off my mind sometimes
i'm feeling a bit like suffocated here
i want to go somewhere to relax my mind
but can't find a place
stuck here and face chapters after chapters
well... I'M BORED!!! :P goodnight!
too public and i don't SHARE
i mean it, i don't normally share my feelings
unless you're a friend really close to me and i feel comfortable with you enough to tell you
i enjoy girls' talk, pillow talk, or whatever that brings us together :)
i enjoy outings with friends
i enjoy moments with friends
i don't mind being alone in my room having my own sweet time
but that doesn't mean i'm a quiet, closed-up person
i don't mind being crazy with my friends, i can be the craziest if i want to
but that doesn't mean i'm really such an outgoing, happy-go-lucky girl
maybe i look strong enough, or maybe i look optimistic enough
hey, should i put up a sign that i can actually cry?
i know that crying is not a weak sign
but do you enjoy letting people see you cry?
sorry to admit but i do cry, hundreds and thousands of times
i can cry over a very simple matter
books, dramas, arguments
am i crazy to cry over such teeny-weeny small matters?
i'm quite temperamental you know?
i'm not as strong as you see i am
but what choice do i have?
i'm wearing this mask like since years ago
i learnt not to show sadness on my face
i learnt to keep secrets
i learnt that if i'm happy, or at least i look happy, people around me tend to get happy too
i learnt to let go
why keep something so painful? move on girl, people never look back
one of the reasons of me being cold maybe?
maybe you think it's fine to treat me like this
but let me remind you, i'm pampered and spoiled as the only and youngest girl in my family
i'm a little baby girl! i cry, i pout, i have tempers
but how you see me has become my mask
i'm strong? fine! i don't cry? fine! i love to gossip? fine! i go crazy anyplace anytime? fine!
i'm strong enough to let you play with my feelings? FINE! a big big fine!!!
do i look easy enough for you? or do i look like a toy to you?
or am i just one of your many options?
i don't normally block people out from my world
but eventually i learnt to do so, by hard experience
please, go on with your attitude or whatever you're on to
enjoy getting close to someone and ditch them later on
i don't show, doesn't mean that i don't mind
i'm not a puppy hanging on your every word
innuendos don't work, and i'm tired of guessing
my tempers are damn bad, but lucky for you, i don't show them anymore
i have tempers, and a real bad one exists
guess i inherit it from my parents, since both of them have the same as mine
i used to let go of my temper a lot during secondary school
primary is even worse... i'm quite a spoiled child that time
but hey, i tried to control it every single time, and i'm still learning to do so
people don't normally get to my bad side
since i don't look like an easy person for you to get away with
but someone tends to be stupid and offends me greatly
but i don't really care anymore
i move on, leaving you behind grabbing on to your little grudge
i don't really need you in my life
or truthfully, you cause a mess in my life
guess that's a big statement, maybe i should just say you cause a mess in certain matters
do you enjoy holding grudges? i guess you do
do you enjoy showing faces? i guess you do too
do you enjoy troubling others? i guess you think it is natural for you to do so
but well... since that you're not important to me
i decided not to slap you in your face to wake you up
live your own life, live it happily!
as long as you keep out from my boundaries, i'll keep my hands behind me
but beware though, i can be really bitchy
sarcastic comments, ignoring your entire existence
i can do much more than that, but i don't normally be a bitch
why don't you wake up, wipe off those stamps stuck to your eyes
and start to see this world, world that doesn't welcome people like you
you'll suffer, or should i say you suffered
past experiences didn't give you any lesson? WOW
guess you think that you are always the right one huh?
so... whatever, just don't try to annoy me
two different feelings in one post? i am ranting
don't feel serious, i'm just blabbering around
i need to get things off my mind sometimes
i'm feeling a bit like suffocated here
i want to go somewhere to relax my mind
but can't find a place
stuck here and face chapters after chapters
well... I'M BORED!!! :P goodnight!
Monday, April 1, 2013
既不守诺 何必许诺
昨天今天分别读完了桐华的曾许诺和曾许诺。殇
我看书看戏都有个坏习惯
很容易入戏！或则说被故事牵着走
所以我看戏读书都很容易哭 呵呵
我很爱读书 不过当然是指小说之类的书 中英语的都很喜欢
有时候其实很骄傲自己有那么一个好的爱好 :P
毕竟现在的人静静坐下来都是玩手机或电脑
而我 给我一本书我可以坐上一天
好像有些跑题了。。。呃
那继续说这两本小说呗
曾许诺里 蚩尤 西陵珩/轩辕妭 青阳 少昊 云桑
炎帝 黄帝 俊帝 还有好多我读不出名字的
故事背景是盘古开天辟地的故事 神农 高辛 轩辕 三族鼎立
故事背景本身就已经很震撼 毕竟要读山海经不是一件易事
对于神话般的故事 我本来就非常欣赏 要写出不一般的故事很不容易
曾许诺里 三族内互相牵制 却又互相利用
生长在如此家庭里 没有所谓的‘我想要’ 只有‘为了族群利益’
蚩尤是绝好的男人 可碰上了轩辕族的阿珩
原本是一介野人 动物的本能只有一种 认主 只要认了就不会放弃
却在遇上背景百般复杂的阿珩 心中产生多种情绪 恐惧 愤怒 犹豫 不信任
阿珩本就生存在步步为营的家庭中
哥哥们和母亲尽量在她出嫁前放任自由
可是下嫁高辛 让蚩尤做尽一切疯狂事 也无法挽回
就算心里再怎么苦 阿珩也只能咬牙忍下去 只为了未来的自由
可蚩尤不懂 动物般的直觉只认为阿珩背叛了她
一次又一次地伤害与阿珩之间的诺言 也让阿珩心伤意决
可河图洛书的出现 打破了所有局面
轩辕青阳 高辛少昊 互相称兄道弟也互相牵制
神农蚩尤 祝融 共工 后土 各自心怀不轨
青阳为了利益利用了小妹阿珩对蚩尤的感情
造成蚩尤对阿珩的彻底不信任 可是他认定的人不会轻易放开
反之利用了河图洛书对轩辕高辛两族的重要 要求阿珩到他身边
只为了证明哥哥和夫婿也会为了利益出卖她
虽然事成 也让阿珩对他死心
阴差阳错下 蚩尤对阿珩的不信任 祝融对蚩尤的敌意
阿珩带着一颗已冷的心死了 千呼万唤也换不回一丝情意
‘既不守诺 何必许诺’ 是阿珩在蚩尤第二次没赴桃花树下之约时刻下
曾许诺的故事环环相扣 根本不让人把书放下好好休息
各族之间 家庭之间的利益斗争 证明了天家无手足之情
就算有 也会成为利用的筹码 青阳昌意阿珩 少昊宴龙
应该只有炎帝家里有真正的手足情
云桑百般保护的弟弟 蚩尤立誓一生的兄弟 那才是一个家
轩辕黄帝有太多的儿子 帝皇之心 利用儿子之间的摩擦互相牵制
俊帝的儿子不多 却有太重的猜忌心 造成儿子间的斗争
我看书看戏都有个坏习惯
很容易入戏！或则说被故事牵着走
所以我看戏读书都很容易哭 呵呵
我很爱读书 不过当然是指小说之类的书 中英语的都很喜欢
有时候其实很骄傲自己有那么一个好的爱好 :P
毕竟现在的人静静坐下来都是玩手机或电脑
而我 给我一本书我可以坐上一天
好像有些跑题了。。。呃
那继续说这两本小说呗
曾许诺里 蚩尤 西陵珩/轩辕妭 青阳 少昊 云桑
炎帝 黄帝 俊帝 还有好多我读不出名字的
故事背景是盘古开天辟地的故事 神农 高辛 轩辕 三族鼎立
故事背景本身就已经很震撼 毕竟要读山海经不是一件易事
对于神话般的故事 我本来就非常欣赏 要写出不一般的故事很不容易
曾许诺里 三族内互相牵制 却又互相利用
生长在如此家庭里 没有所谓的‘我想要’ 只有‘为了族群利益’
蚩尤是绝好的男人 可碰上了轩辕族的阿珩
原本是一介野人 动物的本能只有一种 认主 只要认了就不会放弃
却在遇上背景百般复杂的阿珩 心中产生多种情绪 恐惧 愤怒 犹豫 不信任
阿珩本就生存在步步为营的家庭中
哥哥们和母亲尽量在她出嫁前放任自由
可是下嫁高辛 让蚩尤做尽一切疯狂事 也无法挽回
就算心里再怎么苦 阿珩也只能咬牙忍下去 只为了未来的自由
可蚩尤不懂 动物般的直觉只认为阿珩背叛了她
一次又一次地伤害与阿珩之间的诺言 也让阿珩心伤意决
可河图洛书的出现 打破了所有局面
轩辕青阳 高辛少昊 互相称兄道弟也互相牵制
神农蚩尤 祝融 共工 后土 各自心怀不轨
青阳为了利益利用了小妹阿珩对蚩尤的感情
造成蚩尤对阿珩的彻底不信任 可是他认定的人不会轻易放开
反之利用了河图洛书对轩辕高辛两族的重要 要求阿珩到他身边
只为了证明哥哥和夫婿也会为了利益出卖她
虽然事成 也让阿珩对他死心
阴差阳错下 蚩尤对阿珩的不信任 祝融对蚩尤的敌意
阿珩带着一颗已冷的心死了 千呼万唤也换不回一丝情意
‘既不守诺 何必许诺’ 是阿珩在蚩尤第二次没赴桃花树下之约时刻下
曾许诺的故事环环相扣 根本不让人把书放下好好休息
各族之间 家庭之间的利益斗争 证明了天家无手足之情
就算有 也会成为利用的筹码 青阳昌意阿珩 少昊宴龙
应该只有炎帝家里有真正的手足情
云桑百般保护的弟弟 蚩尤立誓一生的兄弟 那才是一个家
轩辕黄帝有太多的儿子 帝皇之心 利用儿子之间的摩擦互相牵制
俊帝的儿子不多 却有太重的猜忌心 造成儿子间的斗争
曾许诺。殇是续本
蚩尤用生命保护 让阿珩以魔复活 她却忘了所有事
蚩尤把阿珩拐走 费尽心思让她想起 打开了心里最脆弱柔软的部分向她许诺
就算阿珩的夫君少昊想当真正的夫妻 阿珩也已想起了所有事请
只要求少昊履行诺言让她最终有一日离开
在阿珩与少昊夺位时 轩辕与神农开战
轩辕黄帝砍下了神农炎帝 蚩尤的兄弟的头颅
蚩尤在一怒之下 对黄帝痛下杀手 青阳却替父亲当下了雷霆一击
可是因黄帝对儿子的不信任 青阳毒发身亡
少昊承诺 ‘从今以后 我就是青阳！’
他们隐瞒了所有人 让少昊顶替青阳 昌意阿珩却好似在一夜之间成长了
大哥的死亡 让他们察觉大哥对他们的呵护和保护 可却回天无力
原本柔弱不定的昌意 逼迫着自己去承受长子的责任
却在一次和祝融的战争中 因天家之间的争斗丢了性命
妻子在杀了一直以来对他们针锋相对的王妃后 在儿子的面前自杀身亡
他们的儿子 小小的年纪 却背负了所有长辈的怨怒
阿珩为了遵守对四嫂昌仆的诺言 杀了王妃最后的儿子 自己的九哥
几日之间 黄帝的妻子 两个儿子 儿媳 全部身亡 王后也开始病重
追根究底 就是黄帝纵容儿子们互相争斗 忽略后宫里的纷争而导致此景
在轩辕神农开战之时 却发生了如此重大变故
阿珩因为少昊不肯救四哥 怒骂他何以背叛对青阳的承诺 断指断情而去
少昊从此失去了生命中他最想守护的一盏灯火
在黄帝和蚩尤大战之时 轩辕王后仙逝 让黄帝忆起了从前的种种
阿珩失去了所有的亲人 蚩尤想安慰却也无从下手 只因他在战场上重伤了黄帝
被情势所逼 阿珩领兵出战 对上了神农蚩尤
最了解彼此的人 却必须在战场上兵戎相见
最后的缠绵一过去 就是决战之时
双方拚尽了全力痛下杀心 逼得阿珩魔心开启
黄帝却领着另外一方军队随后赶到
让阿珩察觉由始至终 黄帝只在利用这阿珩不为人知的力量 打败蚩尤
阿珩魔心开启 在无意识间焚烧着天地万物
失去意志的阿珩 只凭着最后一念 不伤害一直向她走来的蚩尤
蚩尤用盘古弓 和阿珩以心换心 把自己的心植入了阿珩体内
阿珩只好在桃花间 想着蚩尤 听着蚩尤在自己体内的心跳声活下去
说真的 我从来没有在一本书的开头就开始哭到尾
这本算是破纪录了 呵呵
我想着一次过哭完就算了 今天就把这本书读完了
眼睛哭得够累够肿 头哭得够痛 身体哭得够缺水 还好不用出去见人
青阳虽然冷面 可是对自己的弟妹却是非常呵护的
少昊虽然无情 可是对阿珩也是用情至深 只是利益当前 他选择了高辛
昌意虽然温柔 可是也是顶天立地的男儿 大将领 绝不苟活
黄帝虽然恋家 可是一统天下的野心却不让他如此
一对对的恋人 竟然没有一对以圆满告终
云桑和诺奈是我挺看好的一对
没想到云桑的王姬身份 诺奈的前段婚约 却没办法让他们圆满结束
不喜欢黄帝 利用子女的感情 身份 无所不用其极
不喜欢少昊 竟然为了利益 置对青阳的承诺 对阿珩的情分于不顾
感叹蚩尤 受了那么多苦 爱上了轩辕王姬 高辛王妃
最后却为了救最爱的人牺牲了自己
感叹阿珩 夹在天家斗争之间生存 爱上的却是义无反顾勇往直前的蚩尤
失去了所有的家人 还失去了蚩尤
有那么的一点感叹黄帝 天子的位置永远是孤单的
桐华在步步惊心 大漠谣 云中歌 也显示出了这一点
帮助他登上帝位的王后死了 初恋的王妃也死了
手把手教出来的儿子死了 最后的女儿离开了
只剩下与年龄不符的孙子
再那么的一点感叹少昊 最后一盏灯火被自己亲手灭了
青阳这个好兄弟不复存在 自己间接造成了他的死亡
阿珩对他永远都不会谅解 因为他把高辛利益置在对青阳的承诺之前
到最后只剩自己形单影只
。。。好啦 是很可怜
同样的 既不守诺 何必许诺
既然已经在青阳之前立下重誓 ‘从今以后 我就是青阳！’
那又为什么不救昌意 青阳的弟弟不也是他的弟弟吗
就算过后求了蚩尤的帮忙 也很难让人谅解
反正这两本书就是超级超级棒就是了！
太佩服桐华的文笔 都佩服的跪趴在地上了 呵呵~
我还有买了唐七公子的三生三世枕上书
之前读过了他的华胥引 过后也读了三生三世十里桃花
在找着三生三世最后一本 三生三世步生莲
迟些也会读山经海纪第二部 桐华的长相思
看几时我再来写一次感想吧~ :)
Sunday, March 10, 2013
post-CNY *late ==*
so... i said i'll put on some pichas of CNY
but not taken by me though~ some of it yes, but MOST of it no xD
well... even though it's long after the holidays, doesn't meant that i can't look back right?
this CNY kinda like the best CNY ever! with all the gatherings and stuffs~
gather for prefects~ gather for F6~ gather for sistahs~
i sure am busy huh? :P there's peepo even more busier, no need for me to brag
after CNY is all the deadlines for assignments and MIDTERMs!!!
live like hell, but hey! eventually, finished 3 out of 4 midterms
whootz! presentations hit 1 out of 5 and assignments hit 3 out of 5
at least some of it are over PHEW! *wipe sweat*
time to let photos talk~ they have their words too ;P *wink*
joining in the prefectorial board made a tremendous change in ma life
my true friends are mostly *85%?* from this club
all the memorable things that happened during secondary time all related to this board
^^ if not for prefects, i would never learn so many lessons
arguments happened, we cry we fought over stuffs we laugh we play with each other
hey! we sure are a crazy bunch!
but we did try to enjoy our school life to the fullest
when i first joined, i never thought it will change my course of life so
i now know peepo i never would know if i'm just a normal student
all things started from that point :) and i'm glad for all that happened *teary-eyed*
the 2 HYs and KV came to ipoh some time before CNY
so i'll just steal and post some pre-pre-pre-CNY gathering photos :P
continue with gathering with uni frriends~
we had a somewhat reunion dinner :)
the reunion dinner was a blast! xD had almost 25 person attended
continued to parteatime later on
but the drinks there are totally unacceptable! ==
can't bear to recall the taste.....
err... push off the thoughts!
here comes some presentation photos :)
we presented on margaret thatcher, the iron lady
i guess this sums up my time during CNY and some time after...
not much happened this few weeks though
some usual weirdos some usual stuffs some usual lifestyle
nothing much to blog about :P or maybe there is
but since this blog is quite 'un-privatise'
i'm not sharing it here xP
i plucked up some courage to talk about this after all these time
i still get the chance to reminiscence right? :)
as i asked before, am i still clinging to the past?
well, i don't think so ^^
but still, it won't hurt to think about it once or twice more :)
should end this super long photo-filled post now
lastly... please get ready for a shock :P
that's why i edited it before making this into my profile picha now xDDDD
many comments on saying that i look like baby HAHAHAHAHA
i guess i got fatter xD my roundy face is da iron proof!
same said i look like chloe? shouldn't it be another way around?
but she's the baby now, so i guess it's the right way to put it
GOODNIGHT! ^^
but not taken by me though~ some of it yes, but MOST of it no xD
well... even though it's long after the holidays, doesn't meant that i can't look back right?
this CNY kinda like the best CNY ever! with all the gatherings and stuffs~
gather for prefects~ gather for F6~ gather for sistahs~
i sure am busy huh? :P there's peepo even more busier, no need for me to brag
after CNY is all the deadlines for assignments and MIDTERMs!!!
live like hell, but hey! eventually, finished 3 out of 4 midterms
whootz! presentations hit 1 out of 5 and assignments hit 3 out of 5
at least some of it are over PHEW! *wipe sweat*
time to let photos talk~ they have their words too ;P *wink*
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| dear chemistry teacher in F6! never missed a year in visiting :) |
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| F6 gathering girls group photo! |
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| my dear wifey~ |
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| once the prettiest girl in prefectorial board! the popularity is sky high :P |
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| HY number 2? kekeke cutey <3 |
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| group photo! |
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| group photo number 2! we actually took a lot, i didn't post all :P |
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| my wifu craved for sushi xD |
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| keep calm and... pose! *ka chak* |
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| prefects group photo~ hey! where's my wifu?! |
joining in the prefectorial board made a tremendous change in ma life
my true friends are mostly *85%?* from this club
all the memorable things that happened during secondary time all related to this board
^^ if not for prefects, i would never learn so many lessons
arguments happened, we cry we fought over stuffs we laugh we play with each other
hey! we sure are a crazy bunch!
but we did try to enjoy our school life to the fullest
when i first joined, i never thought it will change my course of life so
i now know peepo i never would know if i'm just a normal student
all things started from that point :) and i'm glad for all that happened *teary-eyed*
the 2 HYs and KV came to ipoh some time before CNY
so i'll just steal and post some pre-pre-pre-CNY gathering photos :P
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| another way to slim down da face: take something bigger than your face as comparison! xD |
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| trying on pretty clothes~ |
we had a somewhat reunion dinner :)
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| le mom xD |
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| aegyo: buing buing hahaha! |
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| do i look evil? |
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| bad example of duck lips! |
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| le duck lips xD |
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| we are happy family :) |
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| kiss da gurl! |
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| is that an innocent face you trying to make? xD |
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| bite le momma! |
the reunion dinner was a blast! xD had almost 25 person attended
continued to parteatime later on
but the drinks there are totally unacceptable! ==
can't bear to recall the taste.....
err... push off the thoughts!
here comes some presentation photos :)
we presented on margaret thatcher, the iron lady
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| photo with tutor~ |
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| group photo! |
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| juicy lips? :P |
i guess this sums up my time during CNY and some time after...
not much happened this few weeks though
some usual weirdos some usual stuffs some usual lifestyle
nothing much to blog about :P or maybe there is
but since this blog is quite 'un-privatise'
i'm not sharing it here xP
i plucked up some courage to talk about this after all these time
i still get the chance to reminiscence right? :)
as i asked before, am i still clinging to the past?
well, i don't think so ^^
but still, it won't hurt to think about it once or twice more :)
should end this super long photo-filled post now
lastly... please get ready for a shock :P
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| i know i know... eyebags right? |
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| changed much? :P |
i guess i got fatter xD my roundy face is da iron proof!
same said i look like chloe? shouldn't it be another way around?
but she's the baby now, so i guess it's the right way to put it
GOODNIGHT! ^^
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